Wednesday, December 16, 2009

aT pReSeNt..


Christmas won’t be the same like before. It will be colder the unusual way I celebrate it for the past four years…

I am trying my best to feel better for the worst feeling I ever felt. Thanks to my family and friends to whom I always gain my strength whenever I feel weak, gain my knowledge whenever I feel the dumbest. My mom would always say to stay calm even in storm like how Jesus handles the situation when they were on sea. But I am not God, I’m only human who feels extraordinary sad and lonely. The last thing I remember is that I’m happy with him. Everything seems perfect. I have a good family, belongs to a reputable company, and a blissful love life. In a blink of an eye, he’s gone and would never come back.

In time I know I can handle things lightly. But for now, I just let myself absorb the whole lot thing and then for a while drain my mind and go on with life. This is not the end. This is only the beginning.

I wish that he could also move on and continue his normal life in our own separate ways. His life without me, and my life without him…

No comments:

Post a Comment