LaSt NiGhT..

I’m just so happy that I woke up today with no more pain. I had been relieved from depression I had last night. Depression cause by not loving me back the way I had loved him.

But on the brighter side, we both know we like each other. It’s just that we are both not ready to enter a serious relationship after a same bad fate in love. Personally, I agree not to rush things and not expect so much to prevent myself on hurting AGAIN and AGAIN…

I told myself not to hurry. I have a lifetime to find him but I’m not really searching. They have to search for me...hAhAhA…

Well, till the next update on my life…bye for now, have to work…

aT pReSeNt..

Christmas won’t be the same like before. It will be colder the unusual way I celebrate it for the past four years…

I am trying my best to feel better for the worst feeling I ever felt. Thanks to my family and friends to whom I always gain my strength whenever I feel weak, gain my knowledge whenever I feel the dumbest. My mom would always say to stay calm even in storm like how Jesus handles the situation when they were on sea. But I am not God, I’m only human who feels extraordinary sad and lonely. The last thing I remember is that I’m happy with him. Everything seems perfect. I have a good family, belongs to a reputable company, and a blissful love life. In a blink of an eye, he’s gone and would never come back.

In time I know I can handle things lightly. But for now, I just let myself absorb the whole lot thing and then for a while drain my mind and go on with life. This is not the end. This is only the beginning.

I wish that he could also move on and continue his normal life in our own separate ways. His life without me, and my life without him…