continuation..

We had a good time together-from the time he was still here. As I linger the moments from behind, I suddenly missed him so much. If only I can turn back time so I won’t have any regrets from the past. The ghost from nowhere continuously haunts me.

I remembered the times when we go out of our own worlds to make our own mutual environment safe from any impairment. We share whatever we have-spiritually, emotionally and physically.

Our relationship had gone far more than friendship. We used to date, and my most favorite activity is to watch him participate on a motorcycle race. Until he had an accident the day before our anniversary came. It was the most painful event I’ve ever experienced. It seems to ruin all our dreams and plans for our future. All are put into WASTE.

He stayed in the hospital for almost two months, fighting against life and death. In a comatose stage, you never expected for the worst but for the better. After struggling for an extended life, he passed away. He let go of his pains and hardships.

I almost fell on my chair crying the whole time I had my mind flash that very incident. How could I continue life after this? Especially now that I’m not the only one who will suffer the consequences. The good thing indeed is that he left me with someone who will take care of me temporarily until the time we’ll have our reunion in heaven-our child Jacob.

Well that’s life. We can not argue with that. We can not let our own will suppress what is meant to happen. The very fact that only God knows what will be our pathways and what our heart’s desires proves that we don’t have control with the future. We only have what it takes to be human- powerless and feeble.